Struggling with thoughts of junk food!!!!

So, I am trying to stay on plan. well, I pretty much am staying on plan. Had some sunflower seeds yesterday and a little bit of Fritos with lite blue cheese as a dip.. but I ate my food and didn't give in to the "I want a cheese burger or chips or fries"...

I have to stay on plan. I have to learn. I have to bring this weight down. I need to start working out. I have to...

What do you do to stay focused??? I know that's all it is... I just need to stay focused.

I also wanted to share my newest and greatest gadget. Talk about making it easier to make salads, cut up veggies.. best $20.00 I spent!!!

Thank God.....

Thank you Lord... God is good....

It seems that I have high blood pressure, but the doctor is going to let me see what happens in 2 months. I will have lost more weight by then. I then am hoping that my blood pressure will be lower. It was lower today than it was the last time I was there.. So, I am praying that I can stop this before it becomes an issue. I don't want to take meds!

I do get to work out. He said I could walk. I'd like to just start working out again. I won't be going to the gym, I have plenty of workout DVD's here at home.

Still a little frustrated, cause we (not the doctor, he didn't seem concerned) don't know why my heart is doing this. It's not doing this alot... but it's still scary. I mean, the way that it beats and stuff, is all normal, according to the tests. There was no abnormal rhythm.

So, that is all good news. I am so grateful for that!!! I'll start with my favorite trainer Tony Horton (who's in his 50's)















click here





and mix it up with Gilad!! (I think he's also in his 50's)

click here

He's also good and fun! So on that note, I am going to start off slow and hopefully it will help my weight loss. Thanks for all the support. I really appreciate it.





Thanks D!!!

Weigh in....

Well, I knew that the 4 lb weight loss wouldn't hold out for my actual weigh in today at JC. That's ok... I went out Saturday to Olive Garden for Chris' B-Day and then yesterday, I was totally off plan. I didn't eat that bad, just not on plan... Went back on plan today and had only a .2 lb weight loss... Our weigh in is usually on a Saturday in the morning, but we couldn't get an earlier time, so we switched it to Monday early evening.. don't like that time either, so we will try and change it. I go to the cardiologist tomorrow, hopefully, I'll get some answers to what ever is going on with me.

Well... Hell.....

Well, I just don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I had another episode yesterday at work. That makes it a total of 4 times. 2 at the gym, one when I had my heart monitor on and yesterday walking the stairs at work. I have an appointment with the cardiologist on Tuesday for the results of my tests. My doctor put me off of work til May 11th.

I am either having a racing heart beat, or feeling stressed and numb, or exhausted. I am trying to do the right things and nothing is going right, except for the fact that I am losing weight and I can't even enjoy that, since I don't feel good.

Today I got on the scale and this is not official.. I weigh in on Monday with Jenny, but I was surprised by my scale today. So just for fun, here's my ticker.

Happy Birthday to my baby boy...

Happy Birthday Chris!!! My wonderful, funny son is 15 today.. Where did the time go?!?!? I just can't believe that he is 15!!!!! Next month Stephanie will be 18!!!!! WTH????

Chris was sick a couple of days this week, so we will celebrate his Birthday next weekend. This is how my kids end up having week long birthday celebrations!! We went to Borders and the kids got books, I also got a couple of books, since my reward to my weight loss was a book and that was my reward for the last 2 weeks, so I bought 2 books!! They also went to Game stop and got a couple of games. I think Chris enjoyed his B-day!

One of the books I bought was Candy Spellings book






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Since I am a huge fan of Tori, I thought I would get her mothers perspective and read her book and then I also got Tori's new book!!



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I don't know what my reward next week should be... Maybe we should go to the movies, at Jenny Craig, they want you to reward yourself for weight loss, but NOT with food. Of course it doesn't have to cost anything, but I wanted a couple of books, so that's what I picked.







Well, on that note... I'm tired and we have to get up early to go to the market for our menu for the week and to Wal-mart for our other stuff. I still have to do laundry and bills. Not much fun for a Sunday!!





Have a great week!!!

Just when I thought it was safe....

On Sept. 25, 2006 in my old journal, I wrote about Rick Dees and that he was back on the radio. It was a happy day for us here in Southern California!! But that all changed today... the powers that be, decided to lease the station for the next 7 years and told Rick and his crew, that it was the end of the road. I'm so sad... Loved that station... Hits of the 70's & 80's.

Had to leave early to take Steph to the doctors. She has a really bad ear infection. NOT good, since it's Senior Project time.

It's TOM (time of month) and I'm not feeling well.

Just when I thought it was safe...................

Corrected weight loss

I had the wrong amount that I want to lose. I have a certain number that I want to weigh and I had the wrong number. I just wanted to document this for my records!!!

Of course 78 lbs is alot better than 83 lbs left to go!!!! whoo hoo!!!

OH and my tooth is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better!!! things are looking up!

My first week with Jenny

Just an update. I have been on Jenny Craig since Monday. We weighed in today and I've lost 4.5 lbs!!!! Well, the first week we went, they weighed us and then when we went back last Saturday, they weighed us and I had lost 1.7 lbs... I was sick that week... same week that we were suppose to go to Palm Springs.

So today was another weigh in and I lost 2.8 lbs. So total puts me at 4.5. I also changed my goal.. I want to lose about 87.5 lbs.. I know strange number.. but it puts me at a good weight with about 5 lbs to play with.

The program is very easy to follow and since I get my food on Saturday, we as a family figure out the menu for the week. We try to follow it along for meals.. So, while I am still having to cook for the family, at least I don't have to figure out what's for dinner. We do it on Saturday. James and the kids are eating better, so I can't complain. Last nite they wanted pizza, so they got pizza and lasagna from Pizza Hut.. OMG.. it smelled so damn good!!! LOL.... I had one bite of pizza and 1 bite of Lasagna. Then I had my food.

I am still having issues with my teeth/jaw. I have to go back to the dentist on Monday. I am NOT happy.. It has been a shitty month.

The food at Jenny Craig, is very, very good. There have been 2 items only that I don't like so far. I think both my mom and I are going to do very well!!! As long as we don't lose our motivation and don't give into temptation. My mom also lost 4 lbs.


I hope you all have a wonderful Easter.

ROOT CANAL

Ok, whatever Gods I pissed off..... I'm sorry..... Please stop now....

I'm off to the dentist for a Root Canal.... can we say fun??? NOT..........

EMINEM MUSIC VIDEO - Hilarious!!!!

Eminem - New Music - More Music Videos

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This has got to be the most uncomfortable thing to wear.... I have to write down everything that I do... It's crazy.... I ended up not going to work, cause I can't hide this thing!!! I feel like a damn monster, or a mummy!!! LOL!!!!

I figured I'd be able to hide it and go to work.. no way.. not unless I wear a turtle neck!! and it's freaken 71 degrees here today. To top it off, I went to the dentist on Monday, cause I had something going on with my teeth and I think I have to go back and get a root canal.. I just want my regular scheduled program.... This with doctors, pain, teeth, hearts, it SUCKS!!!

I hope you are all having a better week than I.

useful or not???? LOL!!!!

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Jenny Craig today / results from 1st test

This morning my mom and I go to Jenny Craig. We get weighed in (again) and get measured and get our food. I will most likely start tomorrow. This gives me today to go to the store and get my fruits and veggies!

I went and had the ultrasound yesterday and we grabbed the doctor and he said "looks good".... so, as far as I'm concerned that is a PASS on this test!!! I go Tuesday morning to get the 24 hour heart rate monitor. I'm hoping nothing pops up on this test. SOOOOOOO, at least the stress level has gone done alot!!!! Thank God!!!! I want to thank everyone who has e-mailed me and sent me good wishes, prayers and phone numbers, so I can call if I need to. I appreciate all the support. I don't know where I'd be without you guys!!! hugs and love!!!

I hope to post how my appt went with Jenny. Have a great day!

Sick, Trip and Doctors

I guess it's just not my week or month... Chris got sick first, then James and then me. Some kind of stomach virus. Not fun.

Had a planned trip to Palm Springs for Wednesday-Friday. That got cancelled, since we got sick.

Went to the doctor and he wants to do a ultra sound on my heart and have me wear a heart rate monitor for 24 hours.

Can we talk about HOW STRESSED OUT I AM???

I am still going to Jenny Craig on Saturday to get my food. I am starting on Sunday. I am going to get rid of this weight, to stop all the health issues that are starting to pop up. Anyway, that's what I hope will happen.

Thanks for all the e-mails. I am starting to go thru them and to hopefully answer you all back. Thanks for all your support. I really, really appreciate it.

Jenny Craig

Today is the first day...






Just to let you know, that tonight I will be going to Jenny Craig to sign up. We had to wait for a ok from my Mom's doctor to start.. (it's just a precaution) ... but of course the doctor is going to say go for it!!!! come on really....but anyway, we were there for 2 hours on Saturday and got all the information.

I will keep you all posted. You can't seem to get away from all the commercials that are out there, of course there is Valerie before and Valerie After. My mom and I both have quite a bit of weight to lose, and we feel that this is the only option. I, of course hope that I do not fail... It's a hard road, as anyone knows when you are trying to lose weight!

High blood pressure????

Who me???? Apparently. As some of you already know, I joined a gym. Well actually we all did. James doesn't really need it, but the kids and I do. So I bucked it up and forked out money for us to go. We were going as a family and really enjoying it. Steph has already seen some progress and she's happy. I found out that I really enjoy walking on the treadmill, with my disco music on my IPOD... great... love the classes also...

Everything was going along, just fine and dandy.. Had gone and gotten a full physical and everything came back perfect, except for low iron... Me anemic... to look at me, you'd say.. You have got to be kidding me... Anyway... James got a new job and Steph is going to start driving and going to college and Chris is getting into the high school scene..so it's been busy. A couple of weeks ago, I had a couple of incidents at the gym. I was working out and all of a sudden thought I was going to pass out. Now, when I work out, I have a heart rate monitor... just to make sure that I'm working in the zone and NOT overdoing it... (too afraid that I'll have a heart attack, especially since my father had one at 47)

So, it really scared me, since my heart rate was jumping way high and I couldn't figure out why.. So I went to the doctor and he told me that I have high blood pressure, and he is sending me to a cardiologist to make sure that nothing else is going on. He told me that I have to stop going to the gym until I see the specialist. I also found out the my iron dropped even more, since October... so now I am now on iron pills. My doctor feels that once I get the iron under control and get the high blood pressure under control, that the heart issue will go away. I go see the doctor on Tuesday.

Needless to say, it's time to lose this weight. Vicky, I'm going to Jenny Craig.. Once I get going on that, I'll probably need your advice and help and try to incorporate WW into my life, if you still will help me out and throw some tips and advice my way!! I just feel that WW right now, is too much work and that Jenny Craig is just a no-brainer.. It's just buy and eat their food. I thought about going back to Nutri-system, and that was just making my stomach do flip flops!!! Gwen, I know you know all about THAT!!!! My mom is going with me. As of right now, we are doing 6 weeks for $36.00.

My goal is to lose around 90 lbs. James eventually will be working nights and it will be the kids and me alone again... It's ok, with the new job, James got a nice raise...so I can't complain... Besides I have you guys!!!

Thanks for everything, and I'll keep you all posted on what happens and my progress!

Of course.......

I come here to finally post a real entry and they have a scheduled outage. I have to take Chris to the dentist for a regular appt... when I come back, I hope to come back on and fill you all in on everything that has been going on here, in Southern California.

The elephant and the dog

WOW
Incredible...

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~~~~Signs~~~~

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Sign over a Gynecologist's Office:

'Dr. Jones, at your cervix.'

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In a Podiatrist's office:

'Time wounds all heels.

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On a Septic Tank Truck:

Yesterday's Meals on Wheels

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At a Proctologist's door:

'To expedite your visit, please back in.'

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On a Plumber's truck:

'We repair what your husband fixed.'

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On another Plumber's truck:

'Don't sleep with a drip. Call your plumber.'

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At a Tire Shop in Milwaukee :

'Invite us to your next blowout.'

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At a Towing company:

'We don't charge an arm and a leg. We want tows.'

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On an Electrician's truck:

'Let us remove your shorts.'

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In a Nonsmoking Area:

'If we see smoke, we will assume you are on fire and take appropriate action.'

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On a Maternity Room door:

'Push. Push. Push.'

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At an Optometrist's Office:

'If you don't see what you're looking for, you've come to the right place.'

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On a Taxidermist's window:

'We really know our stuff.'

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On a Fence:

'Salesmen welcome! Dog food is expensive!'

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At a Car Dealership:

'The best way to get back on your feet - miss a car payment.'

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Outside a Muffler Shop:

'No appointment necessary. We hear you coming.'

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In a Veterinarian's waiting room:

'Be back in 5 minutes. Sit! Stay!'

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At the Electric Company

'We would be delighted if you send in your payment.

However, if you don't, you will be.'

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In a Restaurant window:

'Don't stand there and be hungry; come on in and get fed up.'

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In the front yard of a Funeral Home:

'Drive carefully. We'll wait.'

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At a Propane Filling Station:

'Thank heaven for little grills.'

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And don't forget the sign at a

CHICAGO RADIATOR SHOP:

'Best place in town to take a leak.'

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New Job, joined a gym.....

Hi guys, never had the chance yesterday to post.. but wanted to share that James got a new job. Starts in April!!! we are very excited....especially in this day when everyone is getting laid off and losing their jobs, homes and everything. We are very grateful for this opportunity... We also joined a gym. All of us.. long story.. but that will be another day... I'll let you know the progress on everything!!



now for the daily smile/laugh... got this in a e-mail and thought I would share.

GLASS EYE


A man is dining in a fancy restaurant and there is a gorgeous redhead
sitting at the next table. He has been checking her out since he sat
down,
but lacks the nerve to talk with her.

Suddenly she sneezes, and her glass eye comes flying out of its socket
toward the man.

He reflexively reaches out, grabs it out of the air, and hands it back.


'Oh my, I am so sorry,' the woman says as she pops her eye back in
place.


'Let me buy your dinner to make it up to you,' she says.

They enjoy a wonderful dinner together, and afterwards they go to the
theatre followed by drinks.

They talk, they laugh, she shares her deepest dreams and he shares his.
She listens.
After paying for everything, she asks him if he would like to come to
her place for a nightcap and stay for breakfast. They had a wonderful,
wonderful
time.

The next morning, she cooks a gourmet meal with all the trimmings.

The guy is amazed. Everything had been SO incredible!

'You know,' he said, 'you are the perfect woman. Are you this nice
to
every guy you meet?'

'No,' she replies*
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Wait for it*
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It's coming*
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The suspense is killing you, isn't it? 
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'You just happened to catch my eye.'

Disneyland 2009

I am trying to clean up my "den".. which is really a extra bedroom where James & I have our computers, my desk and a TV.. I came across this picture, that I'm going to put in a frame and thought I would scan and share with you guys. We had won tickets last year from Chris' school and we never used them. The kids had the 31st of January off, so James & I took it off and used the tickets that we won. We forgot that they also have free parking passes. SO.. it was a pretty much a free day... We had a blast!!!!! Anyway, I'd better run, since I do have to get some stuff done, before James gets back from the market. I have so much to share with you guys.. hopefully this afternoon, I'll be able to post everything!!!

Thank God!!!!!!!!!!!!

A friend of the kids ran away from home. She had been gone, since last Thursday... They finally caught up with her around 2am last nite!! Thank God... she's only 15!!!!! I am saying a prayer and thanking the stars above... I didn't realize just how worried I was til, they got her!! I am so grateful, that my kids seem happy and well adjusted and don't feel the need to run!

There comes a point in your life when you realize

who matters,

who never did,

who won't anymore...

and who always will.

So, don't worry about people from your past,

there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

Friendship

SOMEONE FINALLY SAID IT RIGHT! ...None of that Sissy Crap

Are you tired of those sissy 'friendship' poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of true friendship. You will see no cutesy little smiley faces on this card- Just the stone cold truth of our great friendship.


1. When you are sad -- I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against t he sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile -- I will know you are plotting something that I must be involved in.

4. When you are scared -- I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much Worse it could be until you quit whining.

6. When you are confused -- I will use little words.

7. When you are sick -- Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall -- I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

9. This is my oath .... I pledge it to the end 'Why?' you may ask; 'because you are my friend'.

Friendship is like peeing your pants, everyone can see it, but only you can feel it's true warmth.

Remember: A friend will help you move. A really good friend will help you move a body. Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel...

Can I Borrow $25?

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolity's.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours... But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

158 YEARS AGO

Do you know what happened this week back in 1850, 158 years ago?

California became a state.

The State had no electricity.

The State had no money.

Almost everyone spoke Spanish.

There were gunfights in the streets.

So basically, it was just like California today; except back then, women had real breasts and men didn't hold hands.

Let it Go

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you:
let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.
You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,

then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you .

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ..........

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying 'take your hands off of it,' then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2009!!!


LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then .

LET IT GO!!!

'The Battle is the Lord's!'

Attn.... Chris

On Thu, Jan 1, 2009 at 5:49 AM, Chris wrote:
Chris has left a new comment on your post "questions...":

Regarding the email question: If they have a google/blogger account, you should be able to left click their name on the comment and it should take you to their profile, where they may or may not have their email listed. Otherwise, I don't know how else to find out their email.

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you don't have your e-mail listed.... I want to e-mail you...