Aug. 1st - Day 1

Time to put me first.

Time for me to start caring about what happens to me.

Time for me to start working out again.

Let's hope that I find the way.

The calm before another storm?

Hate that I feel like something is going to happen.

I hate that... the calm before the storm.

I pray that I am wrong.

In Honor of you ~~~~ DAD

Today was in honor of my dad. Along with my tattoo

that I got, we also went and had a day in honor of him. My dad loved Downtown Disney and the Rainforest cafe. Today, we went and celebrated his life.

1st stop ~~~~ donuts. My dad used to take my kids out for donuts and it was a "secret"... we all knew, but it was their secret!!

2nd stop ~~~~~ a picture in front of the Rainforest Cafe waterfall, then off to the Lego Store and then to build a bear.




3rd stop ~~~~~ lunch at the Rainforest Cafe.




My Dog - is named Smokey Joe... after my dad....

I love you!!! I will miss you forever!!!

R.I.P. ~ Dad, ~ SmokeyJoe ~ Popi

My dad and Mary Poppins' Jan. 2011














RIP ~ I love you. I was lucky to have 2 dads.

FEAR

FEAR....... everyday, I live in it..

how does one live with that?

EVERY SINGLE DAY?????

How can I manage? I'm tired. I'm sad.

Face in Space

Shuttle Mission

If you would like to have your name/image sent on the next (last) shuttle mission you may go to the NASA site Face in Space

https://faceinspace.nasa.gov/index.aspx

to enter your name and you may also download a picture, however, you do not need to send a picture. Upon the return of the shuttle you have the opportunity to receive a Flight Certificate signed by the Mission Commander.

What five tips do you have for other dieters?

• Don't ever give up.
• Remember it's all about portion control.
• It's okay to have cheat days, as long as you can get back on track.
• Believe in yourself.
• Set small goals.

My 10 lbs milestone

Today I hit 10 lbs lost of my first 30 lbs to lose!!!

YAY!!!!!!! slow and steady.....

Weight loss update

Surviving Surgery

It's been about a week since my surgery. Today is the best that I have felt!! It's beautiful here in Southern California and for that I'm grateful. My wonderful husband has been taking care of me and dinners and my kids have been there to help me. I've lost weight, but tomorrow is my weigh in day, so I will post it tomorrow.

Surgery..... again

Well, another surgery for me tomorrow. I had surgery in May of this year and now, I've got to have another one. Different reason.

I'm asking and hoping for any prayers and good thoughts to be sent my way.

Weight update

Slow and steady wins the race right?

My new weight goal - to start

Alot of people told me that my weight goal was too high and that I needed to break it down into more manageable goals. So on that advice, I am going to lose 30 lbs to start with. I will post my weight/goal/loss here.

A Self-Care Buffer Zone

Your Body

• Schedule a check-up.
• Do something active to increase your flexibility, stamina, or strength.
• Take a hot bath or long shower to relax and unwind.
• Give yourself a manicure, pedicure, or facial.
• Treat yourself to a massage or a new hairstyle.
• Wear clothes that are attractive, comfortable, and fit your current size and shape.
• Clear clutter and create a pleasant space that helps you feel happy and calm.
• Plant a garden and grow fresh vegetables, herbs, or flowers.
• Spend time in nature walking, hiking, or sitting.
• Download 101 Things to Do Besides Eat

Your Mind

• Challenge yourself to think positively and powerfully.
• Give your brain a map to follow by setting inspiring goals.
• Learn a new skill or language.
• Do brainteasers and play challenging games.
• Be creative; experiment with art, crafts, and hobbies.
• Listen to music, sing, or play an instrument.
• Take classes online or at your local community center or college.
• Participate in stimulating discussion groups (like this one!).
• Travel—or explore areas close to home like museums.

Your Heart

• Accept yourself as you are right now.
• Embrace the full spectrum of emotions for the depth and richness they bring to your life.
• Spend quality time with your family and friends.
• Schedule a date night to build intimacy with your partner.
• Identify your feelings by writing in a journal or talking with a trusted friend or counselor.
• Set appropriate boundaries for healthier relationships.
• Assert yourself to let others know how you feel, what you think, and what you need. Accept that beyond that, you can’t control what other people think, feel, or do.
• While it’s not possible or even desirable to eliminate stress, learn to manage it.
• Practice forgiveness. Harboring anger and hurt is harmful and eats up precious emotional energy.
• Be vulnerable. This deepens intimacy and frees you from the need to be perfect.
• Seek coaching, counseling, or therapy if needed for emotional support and to build coping skills.

Your Spirit

• Practice mindfulness. Be fully present in whatever you’re doing—eating, talking, working, playing—to experience pleasure and meaning.
• Renew and restore yourself through prayer and meditation.
• Schedule time for your inner work. Know yourself, your values, and your purpose.
• See your problems as opportunities for learning and growth.
• Reclaim peace and joy even as you face challenges.
• Look for the good in others; it’s there somewhere, just waiting to be nurtured.
• Volunteer and give back to your community by helping others.
• Write down all you are grateful for.
• Practice kindness without any expectation of receiving something in return.

Remember, the purpose of eating is to fuel your healthy, balanced, fulfilling life.

My 5 year anniversary of no smoking!!!

Your Quit Date is: Friday, September 16, 2005 at 4:30:00 PM
Test Time Smoke-Free: 1825 days, 10 hours, 19 minutes and 32 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 36509
Lifetime Saved: 9 months, 8 days, 21 hours
Money Saved: $10,426.46

Happy Birthday James!!!!

I love you!!

It's Raining Men by the Divas

Happy Fathers Day ~2010~

Thanks D!!!!!

I got up this morning and found these 2 wonderful
drawings that my daughter did for her dad



and her grandfather "Popi"

I hope all the fathers out there, have a great day!!!!!

Quit Anniversary!

Well as much as I wanted to start smoking again, because of my allergies.... I still managed not to start up again, here are my latest stats. Your Quit Date is: Friday, September 16, 2005 at 4:30:00 PM
Test Time Smoke-Free: 1702 days, 10 hours, 40 minutes and 56 seconds
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 34049
Lifetime Saved: 8 months, 20 days, 2 hours
Money Saved: $9,724.13

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The letter to Erik

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