Tuesday, October 14, 2025

Steph, POT and ER visits

Steph and Derek decided to smoke some pot today - Steph had a bad reaction to it. 

 

In part she had a anxiety attack totally enhanced by POT. At least she is alive.

 

Reactions to weed can be both positive and negative, including euphoria, relaxation, and altered senses, alongside potential anxiety, paranoia, impaired memory, and increased heart rate. Other common physical reactions include red eyes, dry mouth, and increased appetite. The specific effects depend on factors like the person's mindset, the environment, the product's potency (especially THC content), and the amount and method of consumption. 

Psychological and perceptual reactions

Euphoria and relaxation: Many users feel happy, relaxed, and content. 

Altered senses: Colors may seem brighter and sounds more intense. 

Altered time and space: Users may perceive time passing more slowly or quickly. 

Anxiety and paranoia: Some individuals experience fear, panic, mistrust, or paranoia. 

Impaired thinking: This can include difficulty with memory, concentration, problem-solving, and clear judgment. 

Psychosis: In some cases, higher doses can lead to hallucinations or delusions. 

Physical reactions

  • Increased heart rate: The heart rate can jump significantly for several hours. 
  • Red eyes: Blood vessels in the eyes expand, causing them to look bloodshot. 
  • Dry mouth: A common physical side effect is a dry mouth. 
  • Increased appetite: Many people experience the "munchies," or heightened hunger. 
  • Dizziness: Some users may feel dizzy or have a higher risk of falling. 
  • Sleepiness: Cannabis can cause drowsiness or fatigue. 

 

Important considerations

  • Variability:

Effects vary widely from person to person and can be influenced by your mood and surroundings. 

Potency:

Products with higher THC levels are more likely to cause more intense effects, both good and bad. 

 

Monday, June 16, 2025

ANGRY

How do I stop being ANGRY?!?!?! I want to be at the beach. Maybe I should suck it up and look at something a couple of blocks away. Will I be happy with that? I really don't know. ONCE you live at the beach, you can't settle for something that doesn't make you happy. I just have so many regrets. I really do. I think I need to stop though.

 

I've had a great life, hubby who loves me, children who are good people. 

 

who cares that I'm not at the beach

who cares that I am not a "Nana" 

who cares that I may not be able to retire

who cares that the house is alot to take care of?

 

WHO THE FUCK CARES?!?!?!  

Wednesday, May 28, 2025

An update to LIFE

 I am currently on layoff - with a severance package from Boeing. TFG is the president again and what a nightmare it's been. I hope to retire next year, but worried that I won't be able to afford it. Life isn't what I thought it would be. James is still looking and waiting to get a job. 
 
I'm super sad (2016) was when Steph and Derek told us that they didn't want to have kids. While I totally understand, I feel cheated and unfullfilled. I NEVER thought that I wouldn't be a grandmother. I always thought I would be. I'm pretty sure Paula and CJ won't have kids either. 
 
We have no cats or dogs and we are just in limbo right now.. UGH.. I hate it. 

it's been a while

 I am reading a article and I ran across this: 

 

20."If you have children, you're pretty much always the adult in charge. My husband is great and a very active parent, but my kids automatically just steamroll right past him to ask me everything — all the time. I'm expected to fully immerse myself in every detail of our children's lives. What day is the big test? Who is mad at who right now and why? When is the deadline for X event? What classes are required for graduation? Just ALL the things, ALL the time."

"I also have to absorb everyone's emotional burdens 24/7. It's exhausting."