Struggling with thoughts of junk food!!!!

So, I am trying to stay on plan. well, I pretty much am staying on plan. Had some sunflower seeds yesterday and a little bit of Fritos with lite blue cheese as a dip.. but I ate my food and didn't give in to the "I want a cheese burger or chips or fries"...

I have to stay on plan. I have to learn. I have to bring this weight down. I need to start working out. I have to...

What do you do to stay focused??? I know that's all it is... I just need to stay focused.

I also wanted to share my newest and greatest gadget. Talk about making it easier to make salads, cut up veggies.. best $20.00 I spent!!!

Thank God.....

Thank you Lord... God is good....

It seems that I have high blood pressure, but the doctor is going to let me see what happens in 2 months. I will have lost more weight by then. I then am hoping that my blood pressure will be lower. It was lower today than it was the last time I was there.. So, I am praying that I can stop this before it becomes an issue. I don't want to take meds!

I do get to work out. He said I could walk. I'd like to just start working out again. I won't be going to the gym, I have plenty of workout DVD's here at home.

Still a little frustrated, cause we (not the doctor, he didn't seem concerned) don't know why my heart is doing this. It's not doing this alot... but it's still scary. I mean, the way that it beats and stuff, is all normal, according to the tests. There was no abnormal rhythm.

So, that is all good news. I am so grateful for that!!! I'll start with my favorite trainer Tony Horton (who's in his 50's)















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and mix it up with Gilad!! (I think he's also in his 50's)

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He's also good and fun! So on that note, I am going to start off slow and hopefully it will help my weight loss. Thanks for all the support. I really appreciate it.





Thanks D!!!

Weigh in....

Well, I knew that the 4 lb weight loss wouldn't hold out for my actual weigh in today at JC. That's ok... I went out Saturday to Olive Garden for Chris' B-Day and then yesterday, I was totally off plan. I didn't eat that bad, just not on plan... Went back on plan today and had only a .2 lb weight loss... Our weigh in is usually on a Saturday in the morning, but we couldn't get an earlier time, so we switched it to Monday early evening.. don't like that time either, so we will try and change it. I go to the cardiologist tomorrow, hopefully, I'll get some answers to what ever is going on with me.

Well... Hell.....

Well, I just don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I had another episode yesterday at work. That makes it a total of 4 times. 2 at the gym, one when I had my heart monitor on and yesterday walking the stairs at work. I have an appointment with the cardiologist on Tuesday for the results of my tests. My doctor put me off of work til May 11th.

I am either having a racing heart beat, or feeling stressed and numb, or exhausted. I am trying to do the right things and nothing is going right, except for the fact that I am losing weight and I can't even enjoy that, since I don't feel good.

Today I got on the scale and this is not official.. I weigh in on Monday with Jenny, but I was surprised by my scale today. So just for fun, here's my ticker.

Happy Birthday to my baby boy...

Happy Birthday Chris!!! My wonderful, funny son is 15 today.. Where did the time go?!?!? I just can't believe that he is 15!!!!! Next month Stephanie will be 18!!!!! WTH????

Chris was sick a couple of days this week, so we will celebrate his Birthday next weekend. This is how my kids end up having week long birthday celebrations!! We went to Borders and the kids got books, I also got a couple of books, since my reward to my weight loss was a book and that was my reward for the last 2 weeks, so I bought 2 books!! They also went to Game stop and got a couple of games. I think Chris enjoyed his B-day!

One of the books I bought was Candy Spellings book






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Since I am a huge fan of Tori, I thought I would get her mothers perspective and read her book and then I also got Tori's new book!!



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I don't know what my reward next week should be... Maybe we should go to the movies, at Jenny Craig, they want you to reward yourself for weight loss, but NOT with food. Of course it doesn't have to cost anything, but I wanted a couple of books, so that's what I picked.







Well, on that note... I'm tired and we have to get up early to go to the market for our menu for the week and to Wal-mart for our other stuff. I still have to do laundry and bills. Not much fun for a Sunday!!





Have a great week!!!

Just when I thought it was safe....

On Sept. 25, 2006 in my old journal, I wrote about Rick Dees and that he was back on the radio. It was a happy day for us here in Southern California!! But that all changed today... the powers that be, decided to lease the station for the next 7 years and told Rick and his crew, that it was the end of the road. I'm so sad... Loved that station... Hits of the 70's & 80's.

Had to leave early to take Steph to the doctors. She has a really bad ear infection. NOT good, since it's Senior Project time.

It's TOM (time of month) and I'm not feeling well.

Just when I thought it was safe...................

Corrected weight loss

I had the wrong amount that I want to lose. I have a certain number that I want to weigh and I had the wrong number. I just wanted to document this for my records!!!

Of course 78 lbs is alot better than 83 lbs left to go!!!! whoo hoo!!!

OH and my tooth is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better!!! things are looking up!

My first week with Jenny

Just an update. I have been on Jenny Craig since Monday. We weighed in today and I've lost 4.5 lbs!!!! Well, the first week we went, they weighed us and then when we went back last Saturday, they weighed us and I had lost 1.7 lbs... I was sick that week... same week that we were suppose to go to Palm Springs.

So today was another weigh in and I lost 2.8 lbs. So total puts me at 4.5. I also changed my goal.. I want to lose about 87.5 lbs.. I know strange number.. but it puts me at a good weight with about 5 lbs to play with.

The program is very easy to follow and since I get my food on Saturday, we as a family figure out the menu for the week. We try to follow it along for meals.. So, while I am still having to cook for the family, at least I don't have to figure out what's for dinner. We do it on Saturday. James and the kids are eating better, so I can't complain. Last nite they wanted pizza, so they got pizza and lasagna from Pizza Hut.. OMG.. it smelled so damn good!!! LOL.... I had one bite of pizza and 1 bite of Lasagna. Then I had my food.

I am still having issues with my teeth/jaw. I have to go back to the dentist on Monday. I am NOT happy.. It has been a shitty month.

The food at Jenny Craig, is very, very good. There have been 2 items only that I don't like so far. I think both my mom and I are going to do very well!!! As long as we don't lose our motivation and don't give into temptation. My mom also lost 4 lbs.


I hope you all have a wonderful Easter.

ROOT CANAL

Ok, whatever Gods I pissed off..... I'm sorry..... Please stop now....

I'm off to the dentist for a Root Canal.... can we say fun??? NOT..........

EMINEM MUSIC VIDEO - Hilarious!!!!

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This has got to be the most uncomfortable thing to wear.... I have to write down everything that I do... It's crazy.... I ended up not going to work, cause I can't hide this thing!!! I feel like a damn monster, or a mummy!!! LOL!!!!

I figured I'd be able to hide it and go to work.. no way.. not unless I wear a turtle neck!! and it's freaken 71 degrees here today. To top it off, I went to the dentist on Monday, cause I had something going on with my teeth and I think I have to go back and get a root canal.. I just want my regular scheduled program.... This with doctors, pain, teeth, hearts, it SUCKS!!!

I hope you are all having a better week than I.

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Jenny Craig today / results from 1st test

This morning my mom and I go to Jenny Craig. We get weighed in (again) and get measured and get our food. I will most likely start tomorrow. This gives me today to go to the store and get my fruits and veggies!

I went and had the ultrasound yesterday and we grabbed the doctor and he said "looks good".... so, as far as I'm concerned that is a PASS on this test!!! I go Tuesday morning to get the 24 hour heart rate monitor. I'm hoping nothing pops up on this test. SOOOOOOO, at least the stress level has gone done alot!!!! Thank God!!!! I want to thank everyone who has e-mailed me and sent me good wishes, prayers and phone numbers, so I can call if I need to. I appreciate all the support. I don't know where I'd be without you guys!!! hugs and love!!!

I hope to post how my appt went with Jenny. Have a great day!

Sick, Trip and Doctors

I guess it's just not my week or month... Chris got sick first, then James and then me. Some kind of stomach virus. Not fun.

Had a planned trip to Palm Springs for Wednesday-Friday. That got cancelled, since we got sick.

Went to the doctor and he wants to do a ultra sound on my heart and have me wear a heart rate monitor for 24 hours.

Can we talk about HOW STRESSED OUT I AM???

I am still going to Jenny Craig on Saturday to get my food. I am starting on Sunday. I am going to get rid of this weight, to stop all the health issues that are starting to pop up. Anyway, that's what I hope will happen.

Thanks for all the e-mails. I am starting to go thru them and to hopefully answer you all back. Thanks for all your support. I really, really appreciate it.